looking so hard
at the ratios of
self-worth
confidence
security
against
strife
overcoming
strengthening
wondering why they have
always
been step for step with each other
with me still standing in place
then a click happens

that whisper, again…
question a bit further

i realize i am fighting with the symptoms
while the cause is ignored…

there are two specks of dust
of which all life comes from
love & fear

fear, alone, creates the consequences which
prevent
restrict
make me hesitate;

but
understand what the specific consequences
truly are
and the fear of the results diminish
making the reality of them more insignificant
than I could have ever tried to imagine,
which I did, which was the initial problem

It’s not how hard I focus on fixing my problems,
it’s the perspective from which I view them.

 

 

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(written on computer, realized this morning)