all these years
all this loneliness
depression
anger;
giving and giving
yet never receiving;
questioning
‘why can’t I find one person
willing to
push me as I am willing to push?’
and this god
this universe
this energy of spirits and the living
refused to give in to my
petulance
because
I needed to understand
I
need to do my own work
A relationship is not about
pushing
someone forward on their path
and, they, pushing me along mine
it is about
as is life
pushing myself
and
accepting the support behind me
I often look for salvation in love
when all it really is obligated to provide
is love…
my drive
my dreams
my effort
are my doing.
af
(written on computer)
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