I have already come to the point
where I wonder
if any of this has any purpose
what the fuck really does it matter
even when I am correct or find an answer…
for what purpose is my righteousness
and suppose it is true
that it is simply for the purpose of a moment
alone
that it is necessary
I try…I really do
close my eyes and come close sometimes
quieting too many voices for one head to control
one soul to remain strong against
I do not like walking past anyone
I do not feel comfortable thinking or knowing
that I am better than someone else
that someone else is less than me, inferior to me
that is something I can just simply not believe in
But still
I open the blinds and stare out at a city
one I was raised in
and I see the red brick dreams I have craved for so long
stare at the historical photograph of my view
pouring words
in this miniscule pod I sleep in
and wonder what I just did for the world
what do these words matter
to the world
sometimes I feel so much
but just cannot understand
how what I write helps your life
how have I really contributed
…
…
…
must everything always rely on faith?
af
(written on computer)
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