In the car, on the road
hours ahead of me with time to spare
New York to Los Angeles
everything planned, everything on schedule
I arrive at the first train
first omen received
and I foolishly ignore
I trade the world center for middle town
and I wait, and wait
(It’s alright…plenty of time)
finally arrive, one avenue to walk
snaking my way through drunk tourists
pinballing through convicts, being shoved by police
station platform number two
omens number two and three
(Plenty of time…I’ll get my pass later)
one omen down
Ellington’s train passes…and passes…and passes
(Be patient)
number two
no train for me as a dozen others come and go
all the rest of the world on schedule
(Ninety minutes to travel ninety minutes…)
subway arrives…and we wait
doors close, arrive at next stop…and we wait
door close, next stop…and we wait…and wait
on and on, every stop grows longer
forty-five minutes for a twenty minute ride
(Patience…faith…I’ll make it)
…and the voices begin
“You are going to miss it.”
(I know the secrets…my optimism will not break)
“Idiot, be realistic. Flight is gone.”
(I refuse to give up…faith)
eight oh eight, last stop
next up train three, two bags, check-in, security, gate sprint
“Never going to happen.”
(Faith)
I run, and run
up a flight of stairs
three floors up an elevator
dash clear across an entire station
massive lobby, get pass
“You wasted time…not as wise as you think.”
through the gate and two more tunnels
as I see the doors open
down the corridor
a mob rushing towards me as I try to get
into the hole they all leave from
sweat begins beading and I jump through the threshold
last train…and we wait…and wait
“It is not going anywhere…too late.”
(I’ll make it)
“Your belief is childish bullshit.”
thirty-five minutes to take-off
and I have yet to arrive at the airport
(I, alone, control the rate at which time passes)
five stops left, four, three two one
doors open and I sprint
forty pounds of luggage assisting my training
up the stairs, half mile of tunnel
I try for a quick check-in
“Sorry, you cannot check-in under thirty minutes of take-off.”
(I will not give up…I am here)
full speed to the agents
plead and beg
as they point out
that my flight leave in exactly twenty-two minutes
I have a suitcase, and it is too late for that
(Patience…faith)
Then, before my eyes,
they are turned inside out as angels
the both of them
one gets on the phone
the other asks me wink-wink obvious questions
so as to allow me to carry-on my suitcase
back to the call, to the gate, who refuses to allow me to board
(Faith, hope…I know the answer…I am so close)
as this angel, wielding her authority
forces them to acknowledge my ticket
nine minutes was the deal
forged on my behalf
boarding pass…security
doors close in eight
I cut to the front of the line
to find a dozen, still, ahead of me
(I do not want or hope…I know )
and my last angel appears
opens a new line, allowing me first through
(I believe…Faith…I…Believe)
strip down…
coat, scarf, shoes, laptop
bins falling everywhere
(I WILL Make It)
I get shot up with an unhealthy dose of radiation
four minutes
as I prove that I am not a terrorist
(So close…Faith…One step at a time)
get re-dressed…bag repacked…sweat pouring
I grab my suitcase, sling my pack
tear past homeland security, past police, past rifles
past an entire airport of dreamers and fear-mongers
(run faster…faster)
gate number six
two hundred yards
flight time…eight forty-five
on plane…eight forty-four
For four hours
I heard a voice screaming in my head, in my ear
all the impossibilities ahead of me
but I remembered all the impossibilities
that I have already overcome
I am now over the mid-west at thirty-thousand feet
smiling, grateful
because I chose to listen to the whisper
of my instincts
rather than the logic of my mind…
That
to me
is faith
af
(written on a plane)
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