You realize you are responsible for this?
Whenever I explain this new life to a stranger or friend
you are the one, I exclaim, who was insane enough
to throw the tank of gasoline on the smoldering sticks
I had tried to ignite for years
Everyone mocked me
gave me too many reasons, valid as they may be,
why it can’t work, won’t work, shouldn’t work
and all you said was,
“Brilliant!!!”
The definition of a friend has been difficult for me to describe lately
as the more I have stood by those I have cared about
the more I realized that I have not had anyone standing by me
I am a proud one, a despiser of pity,
but lonely all the same
holding to the belief that
a friend is family with different blood
There is deep humility in my gratitude
because I understand how it is all too easy to take advantage
in a world where people receive so much yet still
find nothing inside to give
We are but a pale blue dot in an endless universe
and perhaps what I am doing,
this pilgrimage I am undertaking,
has no purpose and will accomplish nothing…
At least I am creating rather than destroying
trying, still, to give more than I receive
This journey is not mine alone
as you have emerged as a brother
walking beside me, validating my madness with yours
You are as much responsible for
every word
every poem
every person thought of
and every bit of everything
that is a result of
that is created within
this lonely, crazy artist’s life
You gave me this dollar
as a gift for myself,
to let my mind wander
I pay it forward to you
my friend
who is responsible for giving me a purpose
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(written with pen on paper)
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