i am alone
lately, that is too rare an occurrence
one i cherish
both for its existence
and for its briefness
void of a winter for quite some time
there is hope every time i glance out a window
hoping to see snow
but seeing only the grayness of the urban backdrop
dry
so i go away
remembering popping up in my paneled bedroom
single-digit in age but spiderman at my window
seeing nothing but a world sculpted in white frost
remembering far from my house
standing in the middle of the road
eyes closed and all my crying nights vanished to the vapor sky
…the silence
the indescribable magic of opening my arms to anything life consisted of
in those untouched snows of nirvana
remembering holiday nights
drunk as an adult
escaping the circus to stand in the street
to awe at endless people in their boxes
and listen to the silence
knowing i was in this perfect world
outside, alone
witnessing angels flurrying to paint the earth for morning
it is dark now outside
seeing only my silhouette in this blinded glass
back here in reality
dreaming of room ten o nine
never lonely
with friends like these…
af
(written on computer)
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