bottled up energy I have forgotten how to burn
staring long at this screen trying to relearn
that nights are for the drifters
and if I am set to be one
as the omens hint at
then it is time to gear up, escape
quicken my feet up to run
and chase the sun

i stare and stare
same old nonsense
that has caused my family’s absence
from my life for seven strange years
organs aching
story never changes

dehydrated, thirsty for writing any page
of that deeper emotion i feel inside
the kind that would like to acknowledge
i am scared of what i know about the truth i am hidden from

stare into my eyes
grab hold of me
to push me to the edge takes far longer to travel
i am not where you can comprehend
i just need you for the battle

this energy never runs out
and too dangerous to stay inside
hardens, thickens, slows my route
hoping something will come along
to make me trust in what I am sure is gone
and to run run run run
until
i tire out
or find a home…

if ever

af